对不起！！！？？

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你有看我的留言吗？真地感到非常的对不起，我真的不是有心的只是没想到会突然发生这些事情的。。。。真地感到很抱歉。可能上一次你问我会不会去你的聚会的时候我的却拒绝了你，可是那使得我还过不了自己的那一关。但是这一次我想得很清楚我真的又想过要去的，但临时发生了一些非常不如意的事。。。思杰我感到抱歉！

无语 : )

才刚回到家而已，我以为老豆还是老嘛今天放假所以就很开心因为今天总算有人陪我，可是我竟然发现家里的门竟然没上锁里头乱七八糟的我和小弟第一个念头就是oh my god ... wat hapen to my sweet home 难道进贼了？答案是对的家里真的进贼了。我们到对面家打电话个老豆他超级惊讶的他吩咐我们不要动里面任何的东西，乖乖等爷爷来不久爷爷就来了。。。我们便到屋里看看！

我第一眼见到我的房间我只能哭因为我最爱的房间竟然打过一场战，我爸妈的房间更惨我们也心知肚明家里值钱的东西全都被他们拿走了。。。 爸妈回来后他们问我闭路电视有没有坏掉我告诉他们并没有坏掉，老豆便开闭路电视来看。。我们终于知道是谁干的（老实说并不是很清楚）！我们知道在大约早上十点二十分左右一辆 应该是vios的车。。。一共有四个人时间不超过十分钟。

不久后警察来了看了之后爸妈便去报案，我和弟弟一个人在家里真得很害怕深怕他们会再来。。。爸妈回来后我们便很开心晚上照旧去补习可是老师在讲什么我都听不进去！我从来都没想过自己家也会有这么的一天可是这真的发生在我身上了。

第二天我把整件事告诉了kinyen n duno why i cried in skul all of them were so shock when they saw i cry ...but i noe lah i cried becauz i felt sory to kin yen becauz i lost her rm 50 ... im so blur tat i put tat money on my table so it is taken by tat thief !虽然他没怪我但是我还是很自责。过后国语节的时候kahhui陪我到处走走then i told her wat happen n suddenly i found out tat the 50 ringgit is in my pocket maybe i 4got to take it out frm my pocket n im so hapy becauz kin yen wan me to help her buy NICHOLAS 改版专辑。

i feel so hapy n i told her and then after tat the whole day im so hapy becauz i feel so lucky n when i when home the insurans adjuster is here n after they left ,we pack our things back n i found something terrible happen .and tat is the thief took my precious box，那个盒子装满我所有的宝贝然后就将她连我的所有宝贝都偷走。。。里头有我的手表，项链，手链还有最重要的*****。。。。father say it is ok and he will buy it back 4 me but i noe 我的那些宝贝多少钱都买不回来，没有了就是没有了，失去了就是失去了。。。怎样都挽回不了就像我和你们的感情一样。

什么都做不了了，我真得无法接受说我的盒子被偷走了所以便欺骗爸妈说我要去图书馆借书。。。找借口去找kin yen n kah hui 不久后我便离开学校了。。。我真的不明白那些贼偷东西就好了难道我的那个盒子看起来很贵重吗？又有谁明白我的心情，又有谁了解那盒子对我的重要性呢？那时我的一切所有有关你们的回忆都在里头了，没了我失去了就想永远失去你们一样！！！

今天有课外活动。。。所以就留到五点！我不知为何只要我的思想一静下来，我就会胡思乱想这到底是为什么呢，重视放不下该放下的。我一直都还在意那件事的发生一直还在意他对我说的话，你说得对我失败了无法站起来面对这一切发生的事！那天像夕阳许下的承诺还历历在目，我一直在向我真地做得到吗？考试要到了我还没准备呢！我想我一定会失败的。

我有话要对你说

to : si jie

想不到竟然会见到你。。。 真的想不到。。。 惠英说你看到我给你的纸就笑了，我感到有一点好奇呢有什么好笑呢？？？ 其实事情并没有你想得那样好，其实我昨天已经写了一封信给你的胆识回应说你明天就要去新加坡了所以我就收者先了。。。思杰，其实我是想要告诉你一些事情啦一些在你移民后一直藏在心里的话但是我一直不敢亲口对你说！我现在只是想告诉你而已。。很多事并不是你想象中的那样美好。。 就像我一样我已经变了很多很不乐观了！思杰，我真的不知道该不该给你看这封信但我想你必须要等到明年才可以看到了。。。只是想要告诉你我已经变了很多，已经不是你以前所认识的人了！这就是为什么我要对你说对不起。。。 姐姐，对不起。

***其实老实说我并没有想过会见到你。。 我其实并不像见到你。。。。等你看到那封信你就会明白了

这四四方方的建筑物，好像个监狱。。。 但却溺漫着温馨的气息，幸福的味道。
因为在这里我感到无比的幸福。在这里我认识了一般好朋友，认识了大头虾们。。。。因为有你们让我勇敢地从黑暗中重新站起来面对我的人生！因为你让我无法再相信身边的朋友，无法对朋友倾诉我的心事，让我好压力，就快透不过气了。

exams ,folios ,homeworks

it makes me feel tat f3 isn't tat interesting anymore .... EXAMS around the corner but im not ready 4 the exam yet ... wat should i do ,my target 4 PMR is 8A's but now i haven't start my revision yet so how can i score straight A's .... wat should i do ! there is so many FOLIOS when u reach f3 geografi ,sejarah n even seni folio but i just finish my geografi folio .... n my sejarah folio haven't start yet im so pressure ,realy pressure i dun even noe how to do .... haiz

i thought f3 is very interesting just like wat my frenz told me but actualy it is not tat interesting n fun .... i fel so pressure becauz im now in f3 ,i thought u'll be very pressure when u r in f5 but now im oready very pressure .. HOMEWORKS becauz of folios n exams i put away all my homework to finish my folio n do some revision , now my table is ful with homeworks , folios n revision books !!!!

homeworks , mountains of homework i dun even noe how to finish those homeworks .... im realy pressure ! im not tat smart like RX n KY so i must be much more rajin than them , i just wish to get a better result but i just duno how to start my revision n study , can anyone help me im so pressure n ned someone to help me !! EHY AREN'T YOU BESIDE ME WHEN I NEED YOU .... DO YOU KNOW HOW IMPORTANT ARE YOU TO ME !

a sad day HATE U

tat day giv d 38 teacher to scold this teacher ah pura pura said wana teach us how 2 do folio actualy tipu us go bengkel giv her 2 scold ..... then when we go 2 bengkel ah she ask us wat is our problem woh then start 2 scold us ,i just look behind n look at chi sin then she scold me tat i no manners n wana halau me back to class woh then i say i din kutuk her pleaz dun tuduh me n she oso dont care then halau me !!!!

then i very d mad lah on my way back to class i scold her fu** then reach class i cry lah stupid teacher scold me until i cry leh not 'shuang' !!! remember lah 38 iwil revenge later i 忍ni cauz now got PMR if not u noe lah ..... u better dun do anything to my result ah if not i'll kill u .... scold me until i cry i hate u ...u wait lah til cik kek come to observe u lah we make noise then u noe

but when i cry all my frenz oso very sayang me n oso not 'song' her ............. I HATE U 38

感动的一天

朝阳是新一天的开始，我们刚开始认识的时候就是这样的，那么的天真，无暇。夕阳是新一天的片尾曲，乡镇一天的结束，就像现在的我们一样。遥远的距离不得不让我们相信甚至承认因为距离而变得不再了解对方了，不知何时才能在迎接朝阳的到来呢?



现在回想起来还挺好笑的，那天运动会因为太紧张怕跌到所以比赛前就问我那班PBSM朋友。。。如果我跌到谁要第一个来救我呢？他们全部都举起手来简直令我太感动了吧！过后我告诉我妈这件事我妈竟然说为什么你不要问他们如果我跌到谁第一个不会笑呢。Haiz如果我这样问那谁又会举手呢氮肥厂的清醒地我没有跌到所以没有人可以小我。其实那天也是蛮感动的，因为我的好朋友都很支持我而我也没让他们失望。

真得很想永远停留在星期六那天的回忆，那天真得太美好了。。。当afiqah跑向终点是我们三个人想见到可爱bear bear 的样子，扑了过去一起抱在一起。那种感觉无法用笔墨来形容也无法忘记真希望能重来一次！！！！

nice right she is my best fren

最开心的一天

今天简直就是幸运努深眷顾我们的一天，今天是运动会我一审中最开心的一次！我这次终于鼓起我最大的勇气，把那份生日礼物送了给他！今年是他在中学的最后一年了所以我真的想不到要送他什么好。。。突然就想到钢笔就买啦。本来早上要送给他的可是他很忙加上我没有心理尊卑所以灯塔ｋａｗａｔ完过后才送给他！

在比赛期间我很多朋友因为场地问题所已跌倒，我一直都很害怕，害怕自己会因为跌倒而受伤不能比赛会令我的朋友们失望！终于开跑了，我用尽我一切的能力终于把棒交到队友们的手上。到了重点我们拥抱在一起用我们的举动展现我们对胜利的喜悦。

紧张的时刻终于来了。终于到我们这一组拿奖了。。。由于我们参加的项目讲求默契和合作所以不能有所闪失，但是我的手心一只冒冷汗所以我一直要抹手这实在太可怕了。到了最紧张的时刻了，在全厂的欢呼声中，终于宣布了红队为全场总冠军！我在这间学校三年了终于让我见证到了红队成为全场中冠军这历史性的一刻。

我真得很开心，我知道他也一样开心但很可惜你不再不然也能和我们一起分享这次的喜悦。。。我知道的这次真得很开心他也一样希望我和他的感情会进步因为他今年是最后一年了！我答应自己会用工读书不让他和我的好朋友们失望。就算明年他不在了但我也要为红队争光．希望明年我还会这样开心不会被我的‘外壳’控制住〉

im just back frm Pinang

hey ... im just back frm pinang few days ago to attend my cousins marriage , both bride n broom is so beutiful n handsome wish them hapy 4ever !!! but unlucky im sick on tat day i caught fever , cough .flu so kesian me .... now stil sick realy canot tahan lah , cauz oready long time din sick wat . i luv pinang a lot but it is just a normal island but it is interesting cauz got cousin teman mah ..

the day before my cousin marry i saw something on d newspaper is about him im so shocked when i saw it ..... but i canot tel u guys lah its a secret , but however wish he could safe n hapy forever .




PINANG I WIL BE BACK

my another cousin ah oso wil marry lah but must wait til my aunty come bank 1st cauz 1 family mah must oways together .... ok lah i oso duno wat to say wish me healthy 4ever!!!!!!

wat a scary day

today when i reach skul i so scared tat the class is too messy n teacher will ask us about who dirty d class .... becauz last friday we ' curi curi ' celebrate joanne's birthday in class it was a hapy memory but the worst things was on tat day we oso play flour n then we haven't eat d cake our face oready ful with flour ... they oso play water in the clas so flour add water equals to dough n after some time if we dun clean it then become keras !!!!! we did try to 'safe' d classroom but it is realy difficult to clean d whole clas tat is ful with flour so we just clean some plces n the others we just leave it alone .

the whole class is teribble but after the boys leave me ,ai yen , kah hui , carr mun ,serene n the birthday gurl joanne stay in the class till 4 we took some pictures n al of them were so beutiful im realy in love wif them .


when is science period eo come in our class n give joanne something i realy scared to look at her but im hapy to see her .. we stil cant interact so kesian im so sad tat since such a long time we stil cant interact wif each other.... i hope 1 day wil change .

my worries n things i regret

today my mood 'chao ' gud cauz im expeting to attend joanne's birthday but sudenly they change their plan cauz d pn DAISY lah dun let us to celebrate at anjung so we ned to go to seng ei's houz lah .... but it is so far so maybe i'll decide not to go lah . i fel very regret tat i can't attend joanne's birthday party but however wish u happy birthday JO JO !!!


next week must hand in the sivik folio but our team oso haven't start yet duno pass up wat to pn HAPIZAH , after ned to rush the folio then got exam woh so many things together oso do wat first .... exam coming lah i oso not yet do my revision i very d lazy lah but ah now f3 every exam oso important leh if let my mum noe i get bad results 4 my exam ah ... she sure wil kill me n stop me to attend d sports day practice 1 wat to do now ?????????????????!!!!! i oso duno

april is EO 's birthday i stil can't figure out wat to give her woh , star paper last year give oready lah then dis year leh ?? so 'mafan 'ned to think about these things this year is her last year in secondary skul so of course must give her something better mah ! see 1st lah stil got long time to go leh .

wat a sad day

yesterday i din go to skul cauz i go 4 d competition... there i saw lots of 'leng lui ' but 'leng zai ' ok ok lah . i lose the competition i just tarik diri frm all d competition not becauz i scared to lose but it is just wasting my time ... everyday ned to miss class ,go they early in d morning n then 7 o'clock onii come home waste my time i better stay at skul n chat wif my frenz lah .

i cry yesterday at d tuisyen centre but i just tel a few frenz the reason i cry now i think this is d second time i cry oready ...not my whole life just cry 2 times lah means cry 2 times oready in front of my frenz ......... the first is when after runing d merentas desa we got recess mah then i cry in front of kel yinn , lot of them oso dun noe the real reason y i cry cauz i lose oready mah the merentas desa actualy after i cry for some time then nothing oready ... but sudenly i miss her so much so then i terus cry lah !!!!!


why i oways like cry baby ah i oso duno just cry lah when im sad . 2morow is joanne's birthday we decide to celebrate for her ...but we just plan 2day onii lah we decide to give her her favourite story book - NEW MOON but becauz we dun hav time to buy maybe we'll buy her next time ! mac exam is coming im trying my best to get gud results cauz my class all PRO 1 how to fight ....but i think i can 'GUA'

im so scared

today ah ,i oso duno wat to write ...tomorow im going to SHAH ALAM for the competition i very scared lah becauz i scared to run at stadium remember the first time i went to d stadium is 4 years ago ... i lose the competition i fel very sad so from tat day i swear tat i wil never go to d stadium to run again but becauz this time d competition is very important to myself ,if i win i'll get the surtificate.

im realy scared lah i wish tat my lucky charm is stil now beside me but i lost it during the road run practice , i fel so down tat day it is a present from EO haiz 2morow im so scared lah .... can anyone help n to give me some suport i din tel al my frenz tat im going becauz it is none use they cant make me fel better ....... i realy miss her u r there when i ned u but now where r u . wish u r now beside me !

i oso din even tel EO n boon yi cauz i oso dunno how to say ,if i tel boon yi she wil just say : oh ya u so pro ah GAMBATEH lah ! then EO i din even talk to her im so scared of her she is scary u noe , like a tiger but last time she is not like lah for me ah last time she is the best frend but now change oready ..... dis year is her last year in d secondary skul she will be graduate , i realy scared if she graduate she migrate n EO graduate wat should i do ... I WIL MISS YOU GIRLS ,all of you r my best frend duno why ah ioso ned to ask myself y al ur best frenz oso older than you .. why cant u find some same age best frend meh the answer is no , there is no same age frenz tat is better tan u girls !!!!????

today is my first ..........

todat im truly down but i dun even noe why am i down ...since she migrate to shanghai everyday im thinking how is she now
, is she hapy ? ....the answer is YES ... now she's so hapy with her frenz there .
but im not .... everyday i suffer but now i noe she's not so improtant to me just joking lah , she is stil IMPORTANT to me becauz she is there when im down n hapy .

now im in f3 , everyday i hav mountains of homework but actualy is not tat much lah ... just kinda little but i think is kinda pressure now my class lots of PRO 1...they all so rajin but me ah ...haiz everday dating wif d tv n computer .... oso lazy to study i oready promise her tat i wil get gud results in al my exams but i realy duno how .

4 me f3 is just as normal as usual i dun even fel fear to PMR ..i fel like it is just a normal test but actualy i realy scared i cant get 8 a's in my PMR ,wat should i do now . I fel realy pressure i wana be special n unik but i duno how to make it real !! actualy im kinda lazy everytime oso din finish homework last minute onii finish it ...my frenz dun even like n of course i dun like them to much oso cauz they al makes me hated them but not all of them lah just some ...

my life din seems to be hapy but in skuls i can chat wif my frenz they r so gud like my angel i can;t even think if iday all of them dissapear in my life !!!!!!!!!! FRENZ !!!now i realy ned frenz when i fel down no one is there 4 me even if there is ,but i can't tel them im afraid they wil tel others of my secrets ...

i ned frenz now ...lots of it who can realy be my angel now ...................................